Saturday, March 30, 2024

My signature as a healing reminder

Celebrating five years since my 'April fool's day' surgery On April 1, five years ago, I underwent an eight-hour surgery that had a major impact on my life. Ironically I called this event April Fools' Day! And a few days later, at Easter I wrote a post on Facebook (see PS).

The sign under my signature to remind me of my second life - Francesco Fontana Artist
The sign under my signature to remind me of my second life
A happy turning point In general five-year survival from pancreatic cancer is a great success. I am among the 20% of benign cases diagnosed in time and operable. Today my annual check-ups show a stable situation and my surgeon suggests that the next check-ups take place every 18 months. Time to celebrate!

The signature and the memory

I'm very happy about this! I am moved to be able to celebrate the first five years of what I consider my new life.

Be strong and aware

The smear under my signature on the paintings is the sign of that painful passage. And it reminds me to be strong and aware and improve myself and the lives of others.

Check yourself too

I am also writing this to strongly encourage you to schedule check-ups immediately after Easter. Even if you feel good. I discovered my tumor by chance. Unfortunately, the pancreas and other organs do not give symptoms until an advanced stage.

In the meantime, I wish you a wonderful Easter of rebirth!

Francesco PS This is the post I wrote on Facebook five years ago: Days of Resurrection

Three weeks after the surgery that overwhelmed me physically and emotionally, I consider today the beginning of a new life. I want to thank from the bottom of my heart the many people who have sent healing messages, prayers and encouragement. Thoughts from old friends but also from people whom I don't know who follow me and pay me esteem from afar.

Your spirit comforted me in moments of fear and pain but also in current recovery, while gathering energy to be 100% as soon as possible. I wish you a wonderful Easter, the beginning of a true resurrection, where your deep desires find new life, light, security!

PS. And an infinite thanks to my family (daughters, sisters, parents in law, cousins overseas), superheroes surgeons and nurses at H San Raffaele -- and to my love Roberta who's a rock!

Monday, March 11, 2024

Leaving the Social Networks

Do you promise to quit but never do it? 

Weird! A few days ago I couldn't get into my Instagram. And then in none of my Facebook accounts. No password works. I said to myself: they had me. After 13 years in social media I should have expected that sooner or later I was hacked! 

Keep calm dad!

I think it's a bit of a disaster. What with the thousands of people who followed me for years. Well maybe is only half a disaster, I said to myself. After all, who can say that is so bad? But I kept fumbling and swearing for an hour, until my 18 year old, digital born daughter says: it's a global thing, dad! Social networks are down all over the world. Keep calm, they'll be restored soon. And they are indeed a few hours later. 

My laptop and coffee by the Engelbecken pond, Berlin
My laptop and coffee by the Engelbecken pond, Berlin 

I'm almost disappointed. After all it was a great opportunity to set myself free from this digital slavery. To get rid of this illusory circle of unknown friends and followers. Not to mention the tons of stupidity an hate, commercial bombing and atrocity news. 

Fear of disappearing

I promised to leave that for years, but then don't have the courage to cut off! Social media have become just a distraction from serious studio work and an obligation to be on screen every single day! Else you don't exist. 

Maybe I tell myself changes need to be radical. The gradualness that seems a sign of wisdom only increases the agony, the fear of rupture prolongs the suffering. And instead I should say: Yes, delete! 

Happy Art Life! -- Francesco

PS. Mailing letters are different from social platforms: they are more personal and easier to quit. If you don't like mine, please sign out. If you like them instead, invite a friend to sign up and receive my Artist Letters!!